Lovely bones, Alice Sebold

"When was it all right to let go not only the dead but of the living - to learn to accept?"

strange feelings

sometimes I feel completely out of place, it's the feeling of not fitting in. Of being the wrong kind, the wrong type. Strangely I haven't felt that in places I definetely should, like when I was at the bachelorparty held for my ex, and I was the only woman there.

I feel that I'm not fitting in at work lots of times. With my family, sometimes. Even on occasion around my friends. I am outside looking in, seeing, almost understanding but not quite. Almost wanting to belong but then, not quite being able.

Last time I had the feeling of not fitting in was yesterday. I was listening to Rage Against The Machine as I was walking into Toys 'R' Us.